If the LOVE was real
I'll still cry
I'll still wonder why
I'll still lie
That apart of me did not die
when you left.
It's easier to pretend that we had never met
But even if we did meet I have no regrets
because the LOVE that you gave to me
It was at your BEST!!
I was the Lady that you hadn't met!
When Did We Stop Believing?
When did we stop believing in God?
Was it when our earthly needs were finally met?
Jobs, money, babies, power, attention, weddings, the internet?
If I were God, surely, I would be upset
I wouldn’t send the fire or the flood
But it would be something great to give this world a reset
It is as if our minds have not been made up yet
To have faith in the things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen
He that comes to God MUST BELIEVE
That He really equipped us with the tools, gifts and knowledge to survive these things.
Or do we all misuse our power on such frivolous things?
To look like we are doing good but our character is misleading.
When did we stop believing?!
Is it something in our past that we won’t let go?
Is it something in our present that has become our idol?
Could it be something about our indescribable future trapping our patience in a choke hold?
He, who is in me, is greater than he who is in the world
So, when did we stop believing that with Christ all things are possible?!
It is as if our scholarship and learnedness has left us defeated and exposed
Because I am not sure how we come into new knowledge and wisdom and it does not change our souls
Why should it take one man to help us all reach our goals?
We should be working alongside one another to bring us all home
Being commended for working together towards a common goal
When did we stop believing, imagining, that this too shall pass
Oh God, our provider….Light our path.
To find rest for my soul
I have to risk it all
Trade in all my plans
And lean back and fall
Into the arms of the main character
In the greatest love story of all
A man who calls me friend
When I couldn’t see at all
And before I was born He planned it all
Calling me by name and giving me a call
Don’t worry about what I will wear or eat at all
Like the birds of this land, He takes care of it all
All my worries, all my plans don’t matter at all
He who is, and who was and who is to come
Helps me to be found when I am lost
I am free indeed as He meets my every need
Confidence is the source that inspires it all
This right here is my TRUST FALL
Consistency: the degree of firmness. Steadfast adherence to the same principles. Agreement, HARMONY. The condition of holding together and RETAINING FORM.
Psalms 125:1 Those who TRUST in the Lord are as Mount Zion, which cannot be moved but abides forever.
Inconsistency - unreliable
The secret to consistency is to TRUST God because God never changes, He cannot be shaken by the changes in our world and God endures forever.
The word - consistency has been on my heart for weeks but maybe even YEARS and finally today I look it up to learn what great quality the definition of that word brings to my life. Good morning :)
Everything was going GREAT
and then he dropped the L word
I'm telling you I was listening to everything I heard
Up to the L word
It was like, great this conversation is going better than before
Then out He comes with the L word
I calmed up
I hate not answering when he knows that I heard him'
Wait no, don't say it again!
There's a pause in the air
I wanna go up with it
He's looking right at me
Waiting for me to say it
I know what he is doing because I have done it
I have loved and been loved before
I know the part that you play when you say I love you as a option to see where their heart is at
If they say it back...coo
If they don't...Repeat
But if they never do it makes you feel some type of way
L is now hopeful love
Hopeful that L will return
And not is some other shape but in that exact same form.
Time can even go by with all it's timely things
and L will preserve its loving ways
How can I respond without sending rejection?
How can I respond without sending the wrong impression?
Tell me how can I get back to our GREAT conversation?
I was listening to everything I heard
up to the part when he dropped the L word.
I don't know who I am going for
Or maybe I am going for myself
All I know is
When I get there I am gonna redistribute the wealth
Maybe I've broke some hearts and
Maybe i've hurt some feelings
when it was never intentional
but when it was
and what I did
is a whole nutha issue
I made mistakes to gain wisdom, some conscious and some not
The ones I chose to break a second time it was because there was more that I needed to find out
Don't let your rock bottom also be the same time that you tap out
I don't know who I am going for
and maybe I'm just going for myself
I'd like to think that I am going for me because that is the only person that I can change
In order to be an influence I have to stop pointing the blame
Carry my own weight, my own cross, for being human
If I am going for someone else do I know them, past future or present ?
Do they know or need to know that I am going for them?
In generating those two questions I am confused and bothered
So I am going to go with the belief that I am going for me
With the hopes that someone will come after
So if this fruit that was planted in me can bring forth dividends some three generations after
Then I can't stop here, I must do me and fill this world with joy and laughter.
I don't think I ever desired to know what the lake looks like at 6am
Now that I am so close to the lake I could spit and hit the shore
My curiosity grows stronger.
I know that I need to get back into my routine
the routine that I loved and enjoyed
I exercised a minimum of 4 days a week.
The lake has been calling to me ever since we moved
It is inviting me
telling me to come see
come sit by
"Run around me like ole times," the Lake says
So why don't I
one day take a walk and see for myself
what it is like under the moon light
I could not sleep last night
It was as if the water keep interupting it
My sleep was drowning in the need to see
to be at the tip of the shore
receding shoreline as the low tide is a reflection of how long it took me to come this way
It is 6am
the air is clean
So this is what the lake looks like while I dream
The Lake at 6 am is as perfect as perfect can be
I wonder if its presence on this Earth is just to protect me, provide food and bath me?
Silently respect and care for me
This lake at 6 am is a resting place
A place for me to find refuge while living in a world where is peace is only respected when you die.
As I place my shoes right up to the last second where the tide will actually touch my soles
I stand in awe at the tiny fraction of what I can see there in the dark
However, what I feel will be felt forever
I feel life all around me
Living. moving. breathing.
The lake at 6 am
Is the beginning...
I ware heels when
Bring the kids in from outside late
Don’t Hate, CONGRATUALTE!
You think that I am this, you think that I am that
You don’t know me at all, even if I was up at bat
Pitch that fast ball, I’ll hit it out the park
I’ll show you worthless, you can’t even talk
Keep pitching balls to make me walk
Ball one, ball two, ball three, ball four
You just mad because I showed you the door
You say I am this; you say that I am that
But you and I know what are the facts
You call me worthless, but that’s all jive
I bet it really ain’t the way you feel inside
You had a home run
You could have won
Your score is too low
And now you’re done
You call me worthless, but look into the sky
It’s a bird, no a plane, ACTUALLY it is one of your lies
I am actually the opposite of what you care bore
I am worth more and you can’t ignore
So I’ll hit this grand slam because I am at bat
Win the championship because I am ALL THAT!!
First, I have to thank my gurl Tara Stone, President of God Out of The Box, LLC, for such an enjoyable evening. You go gurl! You are fantastic! You are amazing! Well done! Keep up the great work! You're number one! Great job! Keep rising to the top!
Tonight I had the opportunity to participate in something profoundly innovative, a gospel game night! That's right, i'm talking childhood favorites like, Checkers, Connect Four, MONOPOLY! Then even more positively competitive games like, Spades, Dominoes and Uno! All in a very elegant, candlelit atmosphere with DJ Reese on the ones-and-two rotating a selection of God's favorites gospel songs like; Erica Campbell's "I Love God" to Marvin Sapp's "Never Would Have Made It"
At Stella's Cafe, in Uptown, We were laughing, slapping High-Fives, sharing stories, and sharing a delicious meal together. A group of peculiar people from very diverse backgrounds enjoying each others company doing something that connects us all. You would say it was a little taste of Heaven.
A commonly shared experience was that we had participated in a game night, most likely it was not the kind that played Gospel Music in the background. Finding that out about ourselves made us laugh, look at the other person with a little more empathy and a great sense of not feeling alone about doing something so courageous for God. It was a familiar space but with a twist.
The God Out the Box, Gospel Game Night is THE beginning to something really amazing. We had a young married couple hold down the Spades table twice in a row! We had a Monopolist making side deals before the roll of the dice. Oh let me not forget about the ongoing game of Jenga played by any person that walks around the room. The game finally dropped by Tara as she daringly tried to remove the next block.
We really had a great time! And there's more so make sure you connect with Tara Stone on Face Book, LinkedIn and Instagram exciting things are still happening in 2017! www.facebook.com/tara.stone.3154
Queen is a Author/Poet that through her written works inspires, encourages and provokes discussions